This is my 1st blog here i suppose... nothing much to write cuz e tym now is pretty late already and i still hafta work tml... sianx... but anywae these few daes i dun feel gd... maybe i think too much le ba but e onli thing i can sae is all e best my frens... whenever i see then so close, i feel happi for them, realli, i alwaes think that without me in their group, they may score better in their test and exam. they can get closer too... moreover nix sem onwards we are splitting apart but i still wish them all the very best...

but actually, i am sad, very sad actually... but leaving to make other ppl's life better isn't it gd? is not that i want to act noble or whatever, but it's juz a feeling that i shouldn't belong here... i noe very well that their life is totally different from mine... and their life can be alot better without me... but hopefully i can see my frens dun quarrel or have cold war between one another and that will make me feel contented...

i will still stay happy, hopefully... even though my heart hurts... sometyms i do realli hope whatever i gif out, i hope for a return, but that was very wrong indeed. but i think giving in to everything is very important because tis wun make my fren angry-- which is, to me, most important... maybe i am a bootlicker, but obviously not for desirable traits.. but thankfully he found out that who is his gd fren, that's great... even though i realli feel very sad...

强颜的欢笑原来是心酸的征兆
我没有得到或失去什么，我只是回到原来的我

我想哭 找不到理由
我想笑 心却一直在痛
我陷在 这漩涡 挣不脱

不想哭 眼泪在转动
不想笑 却有种解脱
我回到 我最初 的我