I had my fpath todae... and i am so disappointed... its a goner again... haizz... i am soo sick and tired now... wondering how am i able to make it through for the last 2 papers... aimm is a goner too i think... oli hope is biochem... i expect a couple, or alot of Cs this time round... oli wish is to get an A for biochem... though its sort of difficult...

Nevertheless, i still muz make it through with no sup papers... I muz jia you... hopefully...

I had my worries settled and now i will be working towards a happy life together with my dad and mum and baby... we will make it through...

I am happy... realli belly happy... despite the fact that i had screwed up molegen and fpath when people will be doing well for it... nevermind... i try not to compare myself with others... i noe where i stand haha...

I am a cushion for others...

Today is a great day... I brought baby to have a walk... she has a long time nv go gai gai le... and she is soooooo happy todae... i am so sorry that i kept her at home for so long... she is realli like a dog in a well... gor gor promise i will bring you out more often k...

At 1st din tot of bringing her out, but this gal, dunno what happened, keep on asking me by dancing around her gai gai's stuff (dog's collar and 'string'), then bo pian, see her ask until like that then i told her i will bring her out once i helped my mum buy 4D. When i reached home, she came dancing again and kip on shaking her tail, this dog of mine realli haf good memory haha... so i bring her out...

She is sooooooooo happy and run around like mad lolll... but when i see her eyes are filled with happiness, i feel so happy for her too... i realli love her haha... and i cant live without this cutie pie in my life haha...

I think she was realli overwhelmed by joy... wah biang run around the grass and suddenly SHITTED lol... soooo funny sia... i straight awae suaned her... haha... somemore she stepped on her shit oso hahahahahaha... that's soo funny!

Then i bring her home and bath her... haha... its was such a fun day with her...

Exam in 1 day time... sian... i haven start studying... all my frens are sort of prepared but not me haha... wondering how am i able to make it through this time round haha... hopefully i can make it...

Feel soooooo worried for soooo many things... But when i see baby happy, i will be happy as well...

I love you Baby...

Actually i shouldn't be here at this tym as i am going to have AAP lab test tml and i haven start studyin yet... juz got tips from diana, hopefully i am able to do well... sigh...

I am kinda lost now... wondering how to treat people better or how to tolerate all the unwanted nonsense given by people that i extremely dont like... its too difficult for me... but i will try...

Since this is my blog, so i can vent all the frustration i haf... i have a groupmate for communication skills... she is extremely irresponsible... no sense of initiative... moreover she is my lab partner for biochemistry and AIMM... i cant tolerate any further, but i wont reprimand her straight... one thing to sae, let's see how's her peer evaluation i will be giving her... not more than 2 or 3 marks for each component assessed... i noe ppl might sae that i am evil, black-hearted freak etc, but i dont care... guess if any1 going to do project with her will share the same sentiment... anyone dont believe can try...

Kind of worried for my coming examination... it seems that i haf no mood to study at all... i think i will flop badly this time round.. sigh... i am still standing on the the ground without proceeding forward like wad everybody around me does, let's see how well others will score and how badly i will do hahahah... i am moving backwards eventually... Hoping for a gpa of 3.1... haha... think it is impossible... sigh...

It's never easy to please a person,
it's never easy to compromise.
It's never easy to speak the truth that hides beneath my heart,
it's never easy to tell others what actually went wrong.

Life is never easy... but we gotta live it...

Haha... my top 20 is suspended due to my own problems haha... anywae nobody will go following wads my top 20, its onli for my own reference lol... As usual, problems were not solved yet but i will still try to smile as much as possible, though its ugly for me smiling, but a big mouth that dont smile is wierd isnt it? haha...

Just realised that i have a long tym nv blog, erm should be a week... haha... for a talkative person like me its considered a long tym haha... last week was a terrible week still haha.. seldom got things can lighten up my mood, but i still try to make myself laugh over small little things, hopefully those will make or numb my sadness down in one way or another haha... worriness and sadness are still overwhelming, but i still gotta laugh all the way out in my life... i try not to be beaten by all those things.. haha... i am a warrior now...

Anyway i got alot of frens supporting me and consoling me... thanks alot my dear frensss... u guys are wonderful(sounds abit like wad ms world will sae rite?) haha... now my blog are starting to attract shen mi ke(mystery guest in chinese) haha... but thanks to their concern too..i somehow noe who are u all, but still not sure cuz there are still quite abit of possibilities haha...

My mood is downhearted, but i will do all my very best to lighten my frens one... no matter wad, i will alwaes be there like wad u guys are doing to me now... i will try my very best to help people who are in nid of help, but hopefully they do accept my 'reinforcement" lol..(anyhow use)

If everything is settled, i will join project superstar lol... very buay hiao bi rite? haha but i juz wanna get some experience of joining a competition... though its subjecting myself to unwanted or redundant stress lol... maybe i cant join if i'm working lol.. but if i join, boonching, ciliang, chingwei muz be my maids, then the rest will juz vote and create a fanclub for me wahaha... i noe i cant sing well but i will juz gif it my best shot lol... who noes i might be the nix william hung lol...

I bot a shirt at john little todae lol... its so nice lol... but the material abit thin... so can see my... erm lol...

Exam is coming in a couple of weeks time... I think my results are deteriorating... kinda scare, but hard to pull up my ankle socks... sigh...

Hanqun... Get ya big head thinking and studying!!!!!!

Thanks alot for your concern guys... I am realli touched... Wonder who's anonymous haha... Thanks alot... Anywae just to tell you all remember to attend my funeral when i die k... I hope i can see alot of ppl haha... so that it proves that i am popular haha... (eeyer lol)

Its like raining nowadays... Can lightning please strike me?

Crossing the road when green man is on... Can a drunkard run me down please?

Having my fishball noodles... Can the fishball choke me please?

I wanna sleep forever...

I am useless... I cant help my family in any other way... I am so worried now... who can help? i need the enlightenment from heaven... i need the help from heaven too...

How i wish now i am resting in peace... May i noe what wae to die is the best wae? How i wish i can juz close my eyes and have my nap then thats makes an end for my whole life of 18 years?

If things dont go on correctly, haha there goes me as well haha...

But i will use this blog to make my last post of course...

Dont think i am siao, for which i dont even noe what happen to me as well...

People say choosing to die cant solve any problems, but a selfish me would sae it solve every single thing haha... I am just a week balloon...

I realli feel like crying... I want to cry...

I am crying...

Last words to be made...

I was wondering what day i had today? haha... A stress day or a tired one? But one thing i can confirm is... i had a happy day... yay.. haha...

I planned to meet yvonne for kfc 2dae at 1030, since both of us are having molegen at 12... but... i slept and wake up at 1015!!! i didnt set the alarm clock for my handphone as i doze off last nite on the sofa while watching yu le bai fen bai... moreover it was low batt and it shut off automatically, so my daily alarm dont haf the energy to wake me up from my sweet dreams lol... luckily she haven step out of her house yet, if not i will be killled by this lady lol...

So i rushed to the skool for molegen... thank god it ended earlyyy... lol... and i got my chance to eat my KFC... i am so happy haha... food really make my day haha...

I went to eat KFC with mat and yvonne... and i ordered a zinger meal.. omggg it's sooo delicious haha... *drooling now lol...

AIMM ends early 2dae too haha... but i still got tutorial for AIMM and jap lectures sian... and i got back my AIMM quiz.. omg i passed!! haha...

When i was going home after the jap lecture, i saw cindy joanne and joanne haha... once again, i got dragged into the bus 8... lol... so i went home with them haha...

Now... actually i feel like crying haha... i am sooo worried about my family... how wierd i am, feeling happy just now and sad at the next moment... maybe when something happened, there goes me...

Whenever I am sad, I eat. Whenever I eat, I feel happy.
Getting fat is a symbol of bliss to me.

Hopefully...