Haha i am actually in the com lab at AS lvl 6 haha... finally i can access to internet right here lol.. think i will be like a nomad, going around and search for sources for internet access, and not food lol... alright anyway i got loadz of stuffs to share, but i shall leave it to the time when i have my internet access back at home haha...

I know, right now, i am lost haha... be it the touch with the outside world(because no internet), or many many other factors haha... i just simply feel that there is a lack of sense of belonging... i know right now what i need to do... but its super hurting haha... i am having great sense of satisfaction in my workplace, but i am real bankrupt in friendship... its super contradicting for my feelings... happy in this moment, sad in the next lol... but i guess thats what's my life is...

Gaining everything in the world means nothing to me actually... what i need most or yearn most is accompany haha... sounds pretty superficial right? but thats what my deepest thoughts... at home i got my daddy, mummy and baby... but outside wise? haha... think i am asking for too much... but asking only ma haha... whether will it be given wise is another problems haha...

I am wrong for whatever stuffs i did... but one thing i did correctly... that is i decided not to pester you anymore... i know you find me being a nuisance haha... which i realise i am one when i put myself in your shoe...

I am in a caste system that i learned in history in secondary one... i am simply the pariah-the outcaste...

I am looking for a place... a place that is filled with wonders, friends and every warmth i need.. because i am very cold right now haha... hopefully there is a place like this... so despite the fact that i am living in this reality world, i can still sense the warmth that i need so much...

A wild thought again haha...

This is the backview of the 寿星公.

So this guy say he dont want to take picture.. so he use the paper to cover his face... dunno who ask me to delete my phone content for pictures today hor?

Paparazii no.1 lol... taking other's pic while people not noticing.. however i need to brush up my skill and take more 'special' pics lol...

Here's the birthday boy singing haha... somehow alex feels sleepy... respect pls wahaha...

The fantastic 4!!! lol... This will be the latest boyband haha... and i am their manager wahaha...

Brokeback mountain? No no... lol... the perfect duo haha...

This is my boyband performing haha... ciliang machiam watching tv like that haha.. see how he takes the controller...

Yea boonching sang super well todae... all the high notes he hitted as if its a piece of cake haha... well done lol... i shall put you as the lead singer of the band...

Halo sing pls lol... chingwei looks as if he fell asleep lol...

The mask aka jim carey aka alvin poh singing... wei!!! lol...

Haha the bird day boy and the best header in the world lol...

Haha feeling great today as long as boonching is happy haha... 18 le... and now he is registering for car license... next time i am having an 'ahmad' liao... wei!!! lol... can ask him to pick me up or see me home though we realli live damn far from one another hahaha... Beside wishing him a joyious birthday, i realli hope that from now on there wont be any worries nor troubles and sadness looking for him haha... and i hope that what he wishes will come through... machiam i am the birthdae boy hor... wishing so much hahaa...

I try to learn new stuffs everyday... and i learnt something new today haha... dont try to do redundant stuffs haha... be it out of good will or not... new thing learned lol... i shall not do it anymore haha...

Tml going to john little and work A shift... scare i will bored to death there.. i shall kip on looking for things to do haha... muz be efficient!!!

Happy birthday to you boonching... Once again haha...

I am super happy that i did this skin myself... with the help of alex for the tagboard stuff, cailing for the chinese code and kehan for his assistance too haha... thankew guys and gal... i am super proud of myself right now haha... overwhelmed by joy and satisfaction haha...

Played mahjong today and lost 5 bucks haha.. so heng to lose so little liao... haha... at 1st lost 20 over nearly 30 bucks... then keep on hu-ing and in the end lose 5 bucks onli haha.. super lucky lol...

Tomorrow need to go and teach the indian boy, early in the morning at 9am sia... then after that nid to go to work at john little straight away... by right i should not be here blogging haha... i should be sleeping... belly sian sia.. nvm, i need to work hard for my baby's medical fee... jia you hanqun!

Oh ya monday going to work also lol... quite worried about my pay haha.. scare later it's wrong again... then realli sibei sian lol... let's hope that the pay wont go wrong.. what mine is mine~~ haha...

Heard that he is alright... thats great haha... we are here... anything juz call us k...

I am super duper happy right now!!! lol...

Somehow during this few days, i keep thinking and thinking... dunno what went wrong actually... its kind of frustrating as i cant find the root of the problem, or should i say i cant even find the problem... guess i have to keep on twisting my brain for answer...

I guess the problem still lies with me... but i juz cant find the root of the prob as well as the prob... too bad.. i am FOREVER ignorant i suppose.. i wanna find out what is the misunderstanding or whatever things that lead to this...

I am useless... i guess there muz be some catalytic enzymes catalysing the bond within us... any inhibitor can inhibits these enzymes? i am realli super depress right now...

Somebody might say i am digging my own grave... but i juz haf a believe that somehow he needs our concern... i wanna express mine... and i realli hope he accepts...

Lets see how things goes ba... this is what i can do the most... for a helpless and useless guy's limit...

We care...

Its 230am now and i experienced a disaster... Life is always filled with unexpected stuffs... or izzit there are simply too many signs and symtoms which we didnt realise? i am totally unprepared... but i know i must be strong...

2 sides for me to choose... siding there is wrong... siding here is not right either... somehow i realised that the brightness of happiness started to dim down and eventually leads to ever darkness...

I am always experiencing disasters that friends of my same age doesnt have to experience... i guess this might be the retribution that i accumulate during my previous life... so i can 'enjoy' it once and for all... i just cant believe it... but i gotta live with it... how ironic it is to be...

Please... i beg u please... i dont wanna suffer anymore.. i really dont...

I dont wanna be forsaken... but i guess this time round i am... i am simply a loser in every battle...

I want, or rather i hope that i can be blessed...

Frequent masturbation and ejaculation stimulates acetylcholine or parasympathetic nervous function excessively, resulting in the over production of sex hormones and neurotransmitters such as dopamine, acetylcholine and serotonin.

Abundant and unusually amount of these hormones and neurotransmitters can cause brain and adrenal glands to perform excessive dopamine-norepinephrine-epinephrine conversion and turn the brain and body functions to be extremely sympathetic.

Side effects
- fatigue - feeling tired all the tym
- lower back pain
- stress/anxiety
- thinning hair/hair loss
- soft/weak ejaculation
- eye floaters/fuzzy vision
- groin/testicular pain
- pain/cramp in the pelvic cavity or/and tail bone

This article is so interesting haha... and i learnt alot of scientific information at the same time, since i am a science student myself haha... somehow i can link something out from this article.. juz hope that i wont get beaten to death onli... hahaa... it may be a death blow from him wahaha...

This article is dedicated to alot of people in the world... and the moral of this article is... Dont do things excessively... pleasure is gained when a person knows how to control... so guys out there, control ur urge oh!!! lolll...

I had 3 wishes that time... namely...

1) N80
2) Crumpler bag
3) Doggy's medical fee

I bot N73 instead of N80... so the 1st one is done... as for the crumpler bag, i bot it long ago le haha... so another's done haha... now left with baby's medical treatment fees... haizzz... i simply feel that i am realli a BAD owner... only think of myself and not the others... i had finished getting what i want, and now its time for others le... i muz earn more money for mummy, daddy and baby... so these are my new 3 wishes...

1) Earn money for baby's medical fee... at least 300 bucks.. no lesser and muz be more!!
2) Help mummy and daddy by trying to earn more and pay for the necessities in my house, eg water-electricity bill etc...
3) Earn for back-up money in my house... juz in case anything happens... CHOY CHOY CHOY haha...

So from now on i muz be thrifty le haha... dont blame me for being niao okie? i have my own reasons de... not that i wanna be niao... hope my dear frens can understand... and of cuz i will try to pay whatever debts i owe before i start my effort to make my wish come true... haha...

I am going to work even after skool reopens haha... 24th lol.. wonder how they are going to pay me lol... but HOPE THE PAY WONT GO WRONG!!! haha...

I realise that i have not been sparing a thought for others... this is realli worrying as i am sort of like living in my own world... ke han was rite haha.. i am thinking about myself only... i guess there should be far more people outside thinking that way... i muz try to be considerate... and the priority now is to put myself into other people's shoe...

Its damn hazy during these few days... the smell of burnt and smoke realli choked me... i am feeling damn bad lol... but somehow the haze gave me a wild thought again... i think i cant see my frens anymore... its seems that we are getting further and further... izzit the haze that make us unable to see the deep thoughts of our heart? or izzit we simply dont wanna see? wild wild thoughts wahahaha...

I wanna create a surprise wahaha... wondering whether i will make it a success anot haha... let me think and plan now...

Hanqun... pls be more considerate pls... get ya big head thinking... work hard and earn more too!!!

So she sitting down and wait for mummy to feed her haha... so er xin rite... but she is simply adorable than any other dogs wahahah...

This is another achievement i made yesterdae haha... hong zhong 1 tai, 4 flower 1 tai, mouse 1 tai and gang shang another tai lol... 4 tais in total haha... $_$

So this is dorene... the gal on the rite... everybody in john little kips on toking about her and me.. haha... its nothing lor... sooo kpo sia they all... esp TAN KE HAN!!! wahah...

I am super happy now haha... hopefully everything will move on smoothly and may this happiness last forever and ever haha... todae went to si ma lu with mummy haha... go there and pray... after that i went to teach tuition and vomit blood lolll...

But soon after that, i get to eat STEAMBOAT wahaha... its DELICIOUSSS!!! hahaha... a wonderful mooncake festival celebration haha.. though we din buy alot of mooncakes, only 1 hahaha...

Bot a shoebag as well lol.. finally i got one shoebag... so nix time i can bring my uniform to change at my workplace there and dont have to wear it and travel to there haha...

Maybe i am overwhelmed by joy this week... whatever thoughts that striked my mind are all positive and optimistic haha... i realised something important... in order not to feel pang seh by ur fren/s, we think otherwise... we should respect the way they choose their accompany... they might have reasons not choosing you... maybe thinking this way will make you feel happier and not so angry haha... so if i am ever pang seh-ed again, i shall use this mindset wahaha...

ipenny is a great album!!!

I had my mahjong session todae... oh my god its so fun haha... kakis are sandra, daniel and serene... though i lost 10 bucks, but i find it so fun haha... at least i get to plae mahjong... my most favourite exercise hahaha...

And tml i am playing too wahaha... 1pm... wish me the best of luck pls haha...

I am having a great week i guess haaha... with my new phone coming and get to play mahjong, and the best is going out with my frens hahaha... a happening week...

It seems that the scandalous rumours wont seems to stop, and eventually more and more funny stuffs are adding on haha... i am drowning inside this pool of rumours, though its kind of fun haha...

I realised that i got a book that is due soon haha... i nid to chiong finish it but it seems that i am filled with activities nowadays haha... i shall try my best lol...

Oh pls... another 2 more days, or should i sae 1 more day... my N73... I am so desperate to have u hahahah...

When a woman realised that her husband had an affair, she will say,"You had a mistress!"
"I was just being friendly." the husband replied...
Well i guess this is how man and woman react to different situition, and i find it interesting.. i shall do a research on this whenever i am free haha.. one thing i am curious about is... how do gays and lesbian reply? haha... wild thoughts...

N73... I cant wait any further...