New year approaching, so there bound to be new hopes... as for me, i will make a hope/wish list haha...

A new year coming, and this is what i hope...

- Grow taller
- Become slimmer
- Make my tummy disappear
- Able to sing better
- Richer
- Cleverer
- Get a gpa of more than 3
- Hope my family and my frens will be happy forever
- Hope my family and my frens will be healthy forever
- Hope all my frens can find their true love
- World peace
- Hope everyone in the world will do a part to save the dying environment

I guess thats about it... i believe there is more, but thats what i can think of now haha... abit greedy, erm, shld be very greedy haha... but those i can work towards i will try my best haha...

I wanna go to zoo to visit the poala bear inuka and its mother... who can go with me?? haha... i think i can get 4 free pass to there... but i need accompany leh haha... i realli cant bear to see inuka leave us, and of cuz its mother... cuz once its mother die, inuka will have to leave singapore to a temperate region's zoo... i guess i have to be fast to see inuka before i cannot see poala bear in singapore in future...

Inuka, wait for me...

Juz came back from mount elizabeth hospital... went to visit a-li jie jie, my cousin... she suddenly had low blood level inside her body, so she travel from indonesia to singapore and admitted to the hospital to have blood transfusion. and she have to transfuse 4 bags of blood...

Heard from mum saying that doctor says her condition doesnt seems optimistic, at most a few more months to live, and i read from her report that says she got maglinant tumour somewhere in the colon if i am not wrong. though she had her operation, but there are still cells over there... no hope for a cure, that is stated in the report. but she can undergo chemotherapy, which may be a hope. however, she cant afford it and she dont want to... she has a realli very pesimistic mindset which is very difficult to change it, and i am sooooo worried for her...

She keep on asking me to go indonesia batam with her next week, and mum suggested that we will go after new year... and what she replied was she dont think she have the time to wait until after new year... the moment i heard it i nearly cry on the spot, but i have to be strong in front of her, thats why i am crying right now... i realli scare that she leave me... i love her alot... she took care of me when i was young... she is like my babysitter and tolerate all my nonsense... i cant bear to see her leaving me...

If she realli cannot make it through this time round, i will put down everything in singapore and go to indonesia and accompany her... its not that i am irresponsible, but i do it out of the love i have towards her... the kinship... you can make it through de a-li jie jie... jia you!!! think positively and everything will turn out fine...

I am praying right now that miracle will come out... pls... gods in heaven and everywhere... pls help her...

I love you...

又到了绵绵细雨的时刻，不禁让我又开始胡思乱想。小小的脑袋瓜里装着太多太多的思绪，有点不堪负荷的感觉。总有一种预兆，一种不祥的预兆。感觉我将面临一场腥风血雨的战争，而且还是那种一发不可收拾的。原本已经紧绷的关系将雪上加霜，真是屋漏偏逢连夜雨啊！而我们也将面临生命中的大考验。

希望这凶兆（不是胸罩哦）不会应验！

Got alot of nice food to eat today haha... shall update more when i am not tired hahaha...

However, got said by someone who is not in a good mood... dont spoil my mood with your shitty mood okie? i will greatly appreciate it... if u nid someone to tok to, feel free to come and find me... i will tolerate your nonsense de, but dont suddenly sae those harsh stuffs juz because u are in a bad mood... i noe i may haf asked you for a favour by asking you to help me dl one song... u haf all the rights to say no de... but i greatly thank you for ur help in dling the song that i want...

Stay happy fren!!! you gotta move on...

I feel like swimming suddenly lol... but i dunno how to hahaha... strong urge to swim lol...

Papa making cookies with andy eating there lolll...

What a feast!!! all healthy food with small servings haha.. but its nice lol...

Healthy dish no.1, salad!

Mango pudding!!! super nice haha...

Kimchi egg lol... with credits to caleen...

Mexican fried rice haha... brown rice + 青椒 + 红椒... on top of the picture is baked potato with cheese... nice!!!

Papa making sushi... unagi sushi...

Process of making unagi sushi haha...

Gross picture no.1 haha... abit obscene but the sushi is nice!!!

Gross picture no.2... spasm face...

Due to 'overwhelming' response, papa is making one more unagi sushi lol...

Me and andy...

Caleen and andy the 2 reindeers...

Spasm reindeer... think maybe he saw caleen, that's why he became like that.. wei!!!

2 reindeers... male de lol...

Cheesy reindeer...

Cutie me beside a statue... lol...

I am trying to 抢镜头...

6% alcoholic drink... forget what it is called haha...

Christmas log cake!!!

Log cake from another angle lol...

Dessert time!!!

Papa and me!!! finally another picture we took after so long lol...

Shanel, u go in front abit, so that my head will look smaller... but i dont think there is any help wahaha...

Cheers!!!

And drink... haha...

Daddy and mummy together with elmo!!! lol...

Family portrait... Mama-san mummy and drunkard daddy... haha...

Daddy and mummy bullying tou tou... T_T child abuse!!!

Shanel, stop the invasion!!! lol...

Mummy reindeer sayanging baby reindeer haha...

The lazy mummy...

But the cutie tou tou wahaha...

Super happy last nite haha... and i got contribute hor haha... shanel and caleen doing the cooking and i help to do the washing haha... tou tou good boy lor lol... realli enjoyed alot haha.. hopefully there will be more celebrations like this in future...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Its super late now and by right i shldnt be here haha... tml working morning shift and i think i still left around 4 hours to slp haha... anywae tml will be christmas eve and i will be celebrating at shanel's house haha... pretty anticipate for tml cuz long time never see that potato gal liao haha... cya tml nel!!!

p.s i will be bringing a log cake over haha... dont worry, there is no meat content lol...

Alrights i go zzz le haha... nitezzz to myself lol...

A better tommorw...

Today went to school for art festival's audition.. onli me and ben was there haha... anyway we still gotta sing, so i plae scissor paper stone with ben and the loser muz go sing 1st... and ben start the ball rolling...

Ben sang yi liao bai liao... and no need to sae, he did a brilliant job... and i sang inside your heaven haha... my voice tremble and shake until sibei jia lat haha... out of nervous of cuz... but i din go off pitch and thats my greatest satisfaction haha... i noe i din sing that superd haha... but to overcome the fear and sing in front of people whom i dont realli noe, except bendy, needs alot of courage haha... and i am so happy that i did it haha... be it i get in or not, thats my greatest gift haha...

Feel super happy but somehow at the same time feels abit wierd and sad haha... am i making a fool out of myself? i think i care too much on what people's judgement on me... haiz... anywae forget it, its over haha...

Something funny happened todae... cindy msged me for mathilda's no., and mathilda msged me for cindy's no. haha... i am the phone book that link both of them hahaha.. so qiao rite lol...

Went to work and surprisingly, its not that busy as i tot it would be haha... and i am not alone overall haha... benny came to help me... and the promoters helped alot too haha... maybe bcuz some of them noe that i am pretty strict, so dun dare to come up with 'patterns' lol... saw angela todae also haha... changed alot liao sia lol... now better looking, as compared to the slobbish look when she is manager haha... i feel happy for her that she changed to this job haha... she brought someone there too, but i dunno who she is... maybe i will ask her nix tym haha...

Bought 2 boxers todae haha... renoma de... 2 for 18 bucks onli... usual price is 1 for $9.90... somemore i got 25% discount haha... so that 2 pair of boxers cost me $13.50 onli haha... and 2 more colours to add to my 'collection', pink and green haha... i am wearing the green de now haha.. the renoma boxers is realli good in fabric... i strongly recommend ppl who are wearing boxers to buy that range... its value for money!!! and the design is nice too haha...

Went to simei to plae pool with chingwei, alex, boonching, ciliang, yvonne, phuiyuen, kerensa, diana and alex lee haha... and we played the arcade over there too haha... super long time never plae arcade liao sia, so noob and gong lor... gong until i dunno how to insert credits to plae a game hahaha... buey tahan sia... but it brings back my precious memory during childhood when i was playing arcade that time wahaha...

After that we went to diana's condo to plae and eat haha... and of cuz celebrate ker's birthday too haha... we played a game, but i dunno its name.. so i call it mao mao haha... its super funny lor haha... but we enjoyed alot lol... and all of us gang up to increase the value of yvonne lol... maybe nix tym we will drink abit of wine and make us more gong wahaha... so it will be more fun lolll...

Happy birthday to you ker!!! hope whatever you wished will come true...

Tml i will be going for the audition for art festival... i noe i wont get in but i will still try my best to sing as good as possible lor haha... i think i will sing inside your heaven by carrie underwood lol... hopefully wont go off pitch until super jia lat ba haha... jia you to me!!! lol...

Wrote a song during secondary school haha... but forget the whole part of lyrics... onli remember the lyrics for chorus onli haha... but heng the music i still remember haha... so i will post the chorus i wrote haha...

在月圆的日子里
我看不清自己
我想你想你到我都快要失神
全身都降温
是不是 你觉得我不够认真
我有一句话想要和你当面的说
我是认真的

Went to kbox at paradiz with jinshun, shawn, benjamin, jacinth and cornie haaha... sang alot of songs and sang for very long too haha... from 12-7pm haha... super fun lor... jinshun and benjamin sang unti super good lor... they got great voice with wonderful techniques... i cant sing that well but still learning from them haha... hopefully next time can sing better haha...

I laughed like mad when me and jinshun were singing 金包银... omg the video was sooooo funny lor... and 'orbit' la lol... and i laugh like mad when jinshun start singing... next time muz sing again hahaha...

Film a video of me and shawn singing milkshake haha... interested people can go youtube and type hanqun will do haha... i have uploaded to youtube haha.. but sad sia, i still learning how to put it in my blog's post... nvm i shall learn it and post it out for everyone to see wahaha... its super funny and hilarious lor, when both shawn and me sing the milkshake.... and i am the siao one la... sing until so hiao like that wahaha...

Anyway hopefully next time can sing with ben and jinshun haha... still got alot to learn from them...

After singing, we went to plaza singapura... all thanks to my idea la, which eventually got ben and shawn wet haha.. cuz not enuf umbrella lol... it's raining cats and dogs lor... but the weather damn cooling haha... i laughed all the way there when jinshun and me share the umbrella haha... siao one me haha...

After we finished eating at ps, me and jinshun and jacinth took cab to toa payoh... we were waiting for the stupid cab for belly long la... and 3 of us got drenched while waiting haha... buey tahan lol... got into the cab and alight at toa payoh interchange to take 163... the scenery was great especially when its raining when i was on my way home in the bus... i enjoyed the feeling!

What a wonderful and happening day i had yesterday... i hope more will be coming up haha...

Today by rite shld go pray, but super jia lat sia me... never wake up when mummy call me... so jia lat lor... then pang seh her... sorry mummy!!! i need to pray actually cuz i 犯太岁, but never go lor me... sorry 太岁...

This coming friday i got the art festival audition, belly stress and nervous.. cuz i cant sing but going there to 献丑... haha... pretty pai seh but i guess i have to step out this step ba haha... regardless of the results, experience is still the one that counts... ben is going, but not jinshun... sad sia...

Alrights today got a great weather... but i prefer raining haha... nevermind i got loads of stuffs to do haha... especially playing my command and conquer tiberian sun hahaha...

有时候，我好想天天往外跑，天天出门，让自己曾广见闻，还有吃好吃的东西。有时候，我又好想呆在家，封闭自己，让自己能够得到心灵上的寄托，也让自己的思绪能够沉淀下来。尤其是在这雨季的时候，我更百感交集。负面与正面的情绪同时涌现，让我差点儿招架不住。所以我需要好好的睡一个大懒觉，让自己充电一下，补充我需要的专注与精神。

我想我应该是会呆在家里吧，因为雨天真的让我感觉很舒服，新鲜的空气，凉爽的风，和滴滴答答的雨声。我想这是一个能让我体验与世隔绝的最好时机。以往我都愤世嫉俗，往往都觉得很多事都要从我的角度看，但最近我赫然发现我应该放下成见与庸俗，而从拾尊重与一视同仁的态度。这是一条漫长与艰辛的道路，而我也在慢慢的通往着。

加油！

Mahjong today with my bestest mahjong kakis haha... serene, wenxi and terence... its been a super long time since the 4 of us mahjong together haha... and as usual, laughers all around... everybody laugh like hell... all thanks to me and terence... lame here and there.. ai yo? ai yo? weiiii... ai yo somemore i become chen li ping... AI YO YO~~~

Won 3 bucks haha... consider super heng liao... lost 10 over bucks in the 1st round, then win a few bucks in the 2nd round, then lost 10 over bucks again and recoup back and win 3 bucks in the 3rd and final round haha... got alot of big tai never game lor... if not i win until siao lol... but what's most important is the time we had together haha.. super fun sia... since secondary 3 we played together... till now... and everytime, there are always laughers all around.. anything we oso can joke about haha... super fun lor lol...

Tml going to sing karaoke with jinshun, jacinth, cornie and shawn lol... dunno wad song to sing... my ge tai wor wahaha... wei!!! anyway i oso dont sing until belly nice... so think so early for wad haha... i will also be meeting kahman in the morning for breakfast... so long never see her liao haha... tml finally can get to see her haha... guess i will be having a happening day tomorrow.. looking forward to it...

Super desperate for Red Alert 2 haha... never play b4 so super eager to give it a try.. guess i have to wait until this coming sundae, so i can get it from kehan haha... but meantime i will play my command and conquer tiberian sun to get the feeling 1st wahaha...

I am still thinking whether shld i get the lap top anot... guess i will have to put up a poll on this haha... but somehow at this point of time, my feeling tells me that i shldnt take, and i dont feel like taking oso.. but the next moment will it change? i am not sure myself either haha...

Mood at the moment is great... lets hope that the next moment it will still be good...

Starhub is offering the free laptop, but i have to upgrade my plan to maxonline 12000, which cost $71.82 per month. Currently my plan maxonline 6000 cost $58.80, so the difference i have to fork out additionally is $13.02. However, i have to sign the contract for 28 months. So in that case, the lap top will cost:

($71.82-$58.8) x 28 = $364.56

So i add in an additional upgrade of $169, and the totally will be $533.56 for a laptop.

One thing i can sae is the laptop looks great... and i am merely using it for msn in the living room and in my bedroom, do project, and play simple games anywhere haha... i can also bring to school to ease my boredom haha... but i juz scare i no money to fork out the expensive monthly bill haha... kehan said its good and he got it le haha.. but realli muz think many many times wor haha... what shall i dooo??? haha...

Anyway today in john little is a disastrous day haha... had alot of new stuffs to learn and update... and the new valueplus card is making my head bursting haha... then stupid promoters pissing me off... i was thinking when shall i quit... i think i will quit during nix year april, cuz at that point of time, i worked exactly 2 years in john little, so it will aid in my resume in future haha...

However if i quit and i get e laptop, i scare i wont be able to pay the monthly bill haha...

Seriously i dont wish to quit cuz i realli like the place alot... and the pay is super good also... the aunties dotes on me... beatrice, auntie molly and auntie jane... and they also say they dont want me to leave... i also dont bear to leave them... all my godmothers are so good to me... but i wanna rest and study for the last semester haha... as usual, i will say let's see how thing goes haha...

Alrights i shall end here... tml morning shift... super tired haha... nitez to myself...

没有这么大的头就别戴这么大的帽，但是我的头真的很大啊！

Alrights... i have finished all my undone assignments(except mct lab report) and now its time to study for term test liao... never plan that early before in the past 3 semesters... so i gotta try my best this time round... however, i still lack the self discipline to drive me on... jia you hanqun!!!

Its happy to hear from others that i have turned darker... hopefully this colour will last haha... and at the same time i need to exercise my fats away... double chin and tummy... get lost haha...

Recently kip on imitating the way lecturers talk haha.. pretty bad but as long as it can entertain my friends, i am delighted to do it...

Am i too sensitive? guess i am... type 5 hypersensitivity lolll...

Anyway i am still trying hard to keep my mouth shut at times... thats still a long way ahead...

Meanwhile... as long as i can bring smiles to any single one, i will be happy...

Went to rowing today at a reservoir which i dunno where lol.. passed by vivo city and happens to see how big it is haha... if i am not wrong that place is clementi... but i realli not sure haha...

We were taught on how to row safely and all the basic techniques... and it was super fun haha... i got to plae single, double and quadriple boat haha... i love it sia... it makes me think of the days during secondary 3 whereby i went to jalan batehra to camp and kayak over there...

We were divided into 4 groups... ciliang, phuiyuen, diana and me were in the same group... we had a fun race with other groups and happened to clinch the number 2 spot lol... all thanks to our teamwork hahaa... its so fun...

The weather today was good too... and now i am burning hot haha... sun burnt... nvm... all my exposed area was red, but it will turn WHITE again when the skin shed off... i think tuesdae will be done haha... haizz... i cant get tanned...

Pretty pissed off whenever i got pang seh by my fren... once again, i got pang sehed for mahjong session... sibei sian... i simply cannot stand it la... but i think that i shouldnt be that petty rite... nvm la.. i am petty in nature... xiao qi gui...

Showed black face soon after that... pretty sorry to all my frens... i shouldnt vent my frustration on u all... hopefully it doesnt disturbed u guys... but i think shutting up like today is also a good thing... at least i wont make more mistakes haha...

3 reasons why i am so frustrated... firstly, as i have said, its due to been pang seh... secondly, its because i am super tired haha... but i have no energy to talk onli, not i wanna show face de leh... haha... pai seh pai seh... thirdly wise... i dun wanna say... cuz people sure say i super petty haha... but one thing i can say is i am invisible la haha... nvm... what is there to prove my presence, since it doesnt make any significance haha.. frankly speaking, i feel very sad about it... but i think i should accept this fact... people has their every right...

Hanqun ar hanqun... why are you that petty? you are a guy leh... can you behave like one? dont be that oversensitive can? you are annoying do you noe that? if you continue to be like that, one day you will find nobody beside you...

I agreed i am... and i am prepared to get forsaken... hai ya.. keep on whining wouldnt help.. but its a form of release...

Waiting for mbio lecture to start.. and its at 3pm lol... i needa wait for another 2 hours haha... nvm at least i got someone accompanying me right now, so i wont die of boredom lol... sound as if i treat my fren as substitude and remedy for my loneliness right? seriously i am not haha...

So i gotta lame now... my class got alot of chio bus... and 1 of them is 'equipped' with so much confidence that she call herself one lol... super funny hahahah... wrote in her gloves and claimed herself to be lol... thats hilarious wahaha... guess who she is? she is the chio bu jacinth-a johnson lol... super funny... buey tahan hahaha...

Jacinth the CHIO BU... lolll... she is the most funny gal in my class... whenever i see her, my face will be smiling non stop haha.. i never say she look funny hor oops :x i juz merely say she can make me smile wahahahhaa... dont worry jacinth... i onli mention name when i am saying GOOD stuffs about that person haha... you are CHIO wahaha...

Yesterday was the best day i had in TP... lol... I saw my buddies playing their best in the soccer match... despite the fact they lost, their team spirit won each and everyone's heart... i am the greatest fan of them lol... THREE CHEERS TO Alex, Boon Ching, Bendy, Ching Wei, Ci Liang, Choo Hung, Jing Chen and Jonathan... Its the greatest match i have ever seen in my life... who cares about arsenal, chelsea, man u... their match is nothing as compare to the one i saw yesterdae!!! and the players we had is far much better in team spirit!!! YOU GUYS ROCKS!!!

In a game that is so vigourous and tense, there bound to be injuries... Boonching got himself hurt when the opponent team player knocked him down, be it accidentally or on purpose, we can only pray hard that boonching will recover soon... At that moment, tension and friction between 2 teams rises, and i saw them nearly fight lol... but that moment, i wont feel like fighting, but just looking at boonching's arm... sounds like a bastard right, whereby ur fren got injured and you were not there to attend to him at that very 1st minute... haha...

I claimed to be the manager of this team haha... not because i trained they all lolll... but this manager is managing the team by giving them all the moral support and provide all the necessary refreshment whenever its possible lolll... and i enjoy doing that cuz it makes me feel that i am part of their team too haha... in future for any matches, i will always be you guys de supporter hahaa... if need reserve can call me also lolll.. but i will screw up the match for sure wahaha...

Today is a day filled with splendid surprises lolll... got back my mbio post lab 2... and i scored an honourable full marks (er xin!!!)... people who wanna puke or spit rite pls go ahead lol... getting full marks never come across my mind at all... that time when we were asking Miss Vani questions about mbio presentation, she said there is someone in our class who got full marks in the post lab quiz... 2 person came across my mind at that time, which is jinshun or daphne... cuz their results is the best among all of us... and when i got back and happen to see that paper of mine, i couldnt believe what i am seeing lol... and of cuz alot of people wanna see my paper... shawn was making noise throughout, even after the lab lol... super funny... come on la shawn, stop laughing leh(will that makes you think of someone?)... haha... super funny...

Then in the afternoon, i was involved in the TP RAWKS, whereby students from various secondary came to visit us... pretty pathetic in the numbers lolll... but i still hafta try my best in explaining... 4 different batches came at different timeslots, but one thing is the same, which is the content i am going to deliver... so i said the same thing, same joke, same everything for 4 consecutive times haha... buey tahan... but that is a great form of satisfaction... Dr Yee Mon keeps on standing beside me when i was talking... that makes me super stress lor lol... but i hafta maintain my confidence... one thing that makes me lose all my confidence is my ang mor... super cannot make it la... i stammered whenever my tougue is twisted lol... bo pian, a belly cheena and chinese speaking person like me will always face difficulty when communicating in english haha...
Dr Yee Mon also super funny... keep on asking me to brief... both introduction and conclusion... thanks for thinking so highly on me haha...

Its alright... i got alot of people supporting me haha... and i shall continue to move on!!!


This song clearly speaks what i am feeling right now... haizzz... i shall try not to get affected by all these... i believe i am strong enough to withstand any blows... thats what i believe only...