Sunday, April 29, 2007 11:55:00 PM
Super tired lol...
Well i got loads of things to blog about.. but i am simply too tired.. undone assignments, and unresolved misery lol... well gotta plan out and clear it out once and for all lol...The song in my blog now is super nice... exquisite lyrics with touching rthyme... enjoy...I am going to sleep soon lol... if not tml will be like zombie again lol...
You're my everything =D
Thursday, April 26, 2007 8:11:00 PM
Moody i guess... or maybe its not...
Well i guess i am a failure in quite a number of stuffs... mainly...- I fare bad as an OL in persuading my freshies to the GV night... what a disappointment to Majestic and ASC...- I fare bad as a filial son...However.. there are still thing that i think i do great... which is doing the above...Well its not the time to be pessimistic... but whenever situation arises, i just cant stop generating negative thoughts... perhaps i am prepared for the worst... but it just simply affect my moods at times... no matter what, i will still joke and smile haha...I might have used up all the happiness i had... either i give too much to others, which i think its the priority of my life... or i might have used too much le... it may sound childish, but you would never know... things dont go as smoothly as it is like the past... and i am still suffering from this hardship... deeply drown inside, without the ability to escape...Nevertheless, i still gotta tell this to a fren of mine that things that u juz cant get hold of it, please let go... its pointless for u to hold on without anything in return... well i might sound as if none of my business attitude, and thinks that say is easier than done... but please think of ur frens surrounding you... they worked hard to crack jokes and make u smile and get u involved, but u simply gave them ur cold blanket... well i isnt here to lecture you, but i just hope that u can learn one thing, which is let go... it hurts for the moment, but it would haunt you forever if you persist in dwelling into it... Well i need a break in loads of things... As a reflection, i might need to apologise to my dad with my shitty attitude towards him... however, if i dun use harsh words, how would he understand? he insist in going to work tml, and i noe he cares for the financial stress we are having, but i am more worried that he will have problems, or even accidents when he is driving given his condition now... how am i not worried? i admit that i might not be a filial son... scolding him when he is sick now, but i do it out of good will... i noe i am bad, or maybe he dont understand, but deep in my heart i love him alot and i dont wanna him taking the risk... i am realli in a dilemna now... haiz...Well tml is GV night and i guess there isnt any freshies going to attend for it... frankly speaking i am super disappointed, but what to do? guess i will still try my best in persuading tml... maybe my persuation skills nid to brush up haha... but i will crash their lecture again lol... I need to sleep~! only sleeping can ease my worries and refrain it from entering the lala land that i am always suppose to be in...
You're my everything =D
Monday, April 23, 2007 8:27:00 PM
When can my life go back to normal?
When? When? When? i dunno seriously... negative thoughts here and there... and i do have the thought of ending my life... but what to do? who can help? nobody... its enough said that my dad condition isnt that optimistic... but how? mum is going crazy as days go by... debts are heading towards the deadline and looking for us one by one... i am going crazy soon... It sounds foolish to admire other people's life... but what can i do? i am really super depressed at this moment now... every word i am typing juz makes me wanna cry more... maybe i am juz too fragile.. weak... but i hope i can let out my emotions into this tiny blog... it doesnt help much though... but well, at least better than nothing...Well the nix feel days or weeks i wont be eating in skool haha... maybe its time to slim down... but i just dont have the money to spend i guess... cuz there are simply alot more for mum and i to take it... i need a shoulder to let me cry seriously lol... maybe crying out can make me feel better... erm sounds super girly hor lol... but thats what i really feel at this point of time... Maybe kanna strike by lightning can ends everything smoothly, cuz i am not a good and filial son either... juz let me die...
You're my everything =D
Sunday, April 22, 2007 1:07:00 AM
The sweet happening...
Well I guess I fell into it...
You're my everything =D
Saturday, April 21, 2007 9:30:00 PM
Orientation Leader Training Camp And Week 0!
OLTC last for 3 days... and all i can say is i learned alot of things during these 3 days... all of them are from my fellow friends and team mates... i was in liberty that time haha... most of us were stoners initially... but we gradually changed to become rocks that rocked the pirates' life... frankly speaking, i din take my initiative to join the OLTC, its actually bendy asked me to join one cuz he needs helpers, so, as a friend, i joined... but i din regret actually cuz i noe i am ready to brush up my skills of observation. well, that sounds kind of psychotic hor? lol... but anyway, i just wanto see how people work as a team and how people get along haha... and of cuz, i discovered alot of things that people din discover, even the people themselve din realise that mistakes initially... Actually, i am really one of those FEW that are already year 2 and join this OLTC, and we dont talk about the organisers la lol... at firstl, i really feels super awkward and pai seh haha... and i never talk to anyone initially haha... but thanks to bendy cuz if he never come and talk to me, i will sure stone there and stare how castles are built in the air lol... Well we played alot of team bonding games... and our team of cuz bonded alot lol... however, the more we bond, the more i discover things that are bad sides of my team mates... i dont voice out of cuz... Lets talk about food there... erm one word... SUCKS lol... all of us cannot stop grumbling about the food lol.. it was really shit, shit, and SHITTT!!! lol... but i still gobble up my food cuz i am too hungry lol... Erm how about the organisation? well.. upon 10 i will give them a 7... or maybe 6.5... cuz i think there are still too many things to improve on... i cant remember one by one right now, but if i can realli sit down and recall, its really alot to improve haha... participants can see more than the organisers... Okie now lets talk about the WEEK 0 haha... it was BUSY, BUSY and BUSY... lol... i was like so tired la throughout... but i juz move on cuz if we dont, the pirates will really stone and stone and STONE! lol... i myself made one big mistake which is bringing my pirates to the wrong clan, which eventually, wrong station... kanna scolded by one LT HEAD (think people who know, knew) whereby i already apologised to everybody there... nvm its not only once i kanna... the 1st time is when i went into their LT and they are doing their decoration.. the 1st thing he said to me isnt HELLO HANQUN, but is IF YOU ARE NOT COMING TO HELP, PLEASE GET LOSS! wow... what an unique way to welcome a person who is so innocent lol... my feelings at that point of time is WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT? but i juz give him face in front of his team mates despite the fact that he din give me... i wont scold back.. thats my usual character.. i will juz tolerate and will gather everything and tell him nicely lol...I took A7K1, the only vet science with the most people in the class with michelle haha... all i can say about my class is - stoners all the way lol... but they really rocked me off soon after the 1st day haha... i was like kind of shocked when those 'people' who cannot get along with my character one is filtrated away... because the rest really rocks lol... alot of them are funny haha... but i am afraid that they might have to tolerate some other nonsense... anyway i shouldnt bad mouth those people... the rest of the class will noe de la lol...I can see alot of nice freshies, or rather pirates among them... some super handsome, some super funny, some super pretty, some super cool etc etc etc... but its really fun getting along with them... if u guys happened to see my blog, i sincerely thank you all for giving me such a wonderful memory... like what i always say, if anything dunno ask me haha...Actually i din noe that there are the best 1st mate award lol... kind of shock to see some people took that award... though i was abit jealous, but i dont wanna care that much... cuz the best present i had is the team majestic haha... Adelyn: Pretty, sweet and gentle lol... crappy at times but like to bully me also haha... our vice captain wahaha... remember what i told you okie... jia you for ur coming semester... GPA 4!!!Clement: The captain HOOKER, erm oops... captain hook lol... he is really funny and the way we think also the same one lol... Caiying: Bully me always... ALWAYS lol... dont forget my bubbletea lol.. she is really fun and we juz stay 4 blocks away onli lol.. clement, she and me always go to mac for our dinner, erm, supper ba lol... but again, she also thinks the same way like me and clement does lol...Qiao Yi: Quiet girl but she can also super siao one lor lol... Hazel: Hazel nut... wei!!! lol... also always bully me one lo lol... but cant believe that her handphone got hokkien song haha... Hilyah: Filled with kindergarden teacher quality... so nix time when she go teach, she can teach primary, kindergarden.. but she is teaching secondary skoon hor... it would be hard... all the best...Those great time whom we shared, becomes memories since the last minute of orientation yesterday... we will still kip in contact for sure!!!
You're my everything =D
Thursday, April 19, 2007 10:18:00 PM
Too many things to say... but too tired to write it out lol...
Well... 3 days of orientation passed juz like a glimpse of light... and i really enjoyed it... we still left with tml, which will be LC skit and regatta... i shall not talk about this now cuz i will leave everything in one post, which includes our OLTC camp and this week 0...Got my time table today and i was like WOW lol... TUESDAY NO SKOOL!!! shiok lor... but other days juz got to study like mad... but one thing i am super super super sad is, there is a RESHUFFLEMENT of students among the 2 classes... and i was like WTF lor... though i get into the class with diana, stacia, lorencia, shawn, shimona (thats all i noe for the moment), but i cant get into the same class with jinshun and chengchong... these few of us was like the best click in vet science... and now i hope jacinth and cornie will be the same class as me, but selfish-ly thinking lol.. cuz if they same class as me, that would mean that jinshun will onli be left with chengchong... jinshun... i wanto be with u... erm that sounds so wrong lol...Its not a surprise that ms hor is teaching us bpharm... song bo... wei lol... i guess i will be dozing off everytime... but thinking that every tuesdae i am free to go swimming, i am so happy lol... i wanto 减肥 lolll...Alrights, soon i will have to go kun already lol... super tired.. 3 days sleep less 6 hours lol... majestic first mates and captains, please rest well too k...
You're my everything =D
Tuesday, April 17, 2007 1:10:00 AM
7 more hours to the big day!!!
Well, i should be sleeping by now cuz tml gotta wake up at around 445 to 5am lol... meeting up with my majestic people at 645 to settle the stuffs and make it once and for all... however, i still haven do alot of things yet, like run down of the program tomorrow and cheers for majestic... i need the run down cuz tml i gotta know what time i need to do what haha... so me and michelle wont be lost... cheers wise i need to get ideas and more ideas, however juz now when bathing, i tot of a food cheer, so it can be used tml and subsequent days when we are going to eat haha... guys, look forward for my world premier of my latest single wahaha...Kelvin, Shanel and Caleen came and visit me and my dad... and shanel and caleen wrapped a fruit basket for my dad... omg i am so touched when i see that la... my dad is super happy also haha... they bring me an umbrella when my world is raining, though the umbrella cant cover my head... WEI... thanks alot guys... u guys make wonders de wor~! lol... with kelvin, shanel and caleen around, it makes my family whole... PAPA, MAMA AND THE DOG... u guys should noe the role urself whahaha... and not forgetting the cutest TOU TOU wahaha... thanks alot guys...Well terence got his rifle today and he messaged me and not forgetting the concerns... thanks alot brother... u take care wor...Well i needa go and busy with my stuffs le... jia you hanqun...
You're my everything =D
Sunday, April 15, 2007 8:44:00 PM
The busiest week has arrived!
Went to work yesterday haha... its been around 3 weeks since i last worked lol... and i actually forget some of the procedures sia... Nets and ICE auto settlement i forget to do lol... power lor lol... but work is still fun though lol... cuz not much customers.. but onli thing bad is the whole of menswear onli i alone there stoning... heng got those promoters to talk to, if not sure bored to death lol... Rumors are around and it spread like wild fire... all of them are saying where will they be posted to... to me, i dun want to go to urban house... i guess the environment sucks and of something else... hopefully i can get to choose where i can go... melvin is going to causeway point.. i guess i will be following him and request to go there haha... hopefully everything will turn out fine... and sad sia, melvin forget to bring the games... sian la... cannot play... no time liao leh, nix week will be the busiest week i have...Tml onwards i will be busy like mad lol... i will be having dragon boat training from 9-11, then i gotta help out with the lt decoration and many other things... still alot of things not yet done... super worried... bendy said we gotta buck up, but even if we lost to other ships, i am still happy with our majestic... we have tried our best, and all we can do now is to rock week 0... our fellow team mates got their own job and commitment.. i am so happy that we can already come up with so many things already... of cuz, i myself gotta apologise too because i wasnt there for some of the meetings... Tuesday will be the beginnig of WEEK 0... i am super excited and anticipate for it, but i am also super scare that i will fail been a good orientation leader... nevertheless, i will still try my best...即期待又怕受伤害...
You're my everything =D
Saturday, April 14, 2007 12:05:00 AM
LEE's POLYTECHNIC MAIN EXAMINATION YEAR 2007
What problems do you have now? (12 marks)- Baby's skin started to itch and she cant keep herself from scratching- Medicines running out for Baby- No time to apply ointment for her, but ointment running out too- No time to bath her- No time and money to buy her medicine and bring her back for consultation again- Dad's condition- Mum's health - Home financial problems- Orientation- Decoration stuffs not yet finished- No time to keep dad accompany- Worrying that he will anyhow go out and more problems will come soon after thatWell now i am sooooo troubled... and i am really super exhausted... seeing dad like that makes me feel sooooo worried... how am i going to work and go for my orientation without any worries? how? he is simply behaving like a kid... and now i start to lose my patience towards him... no matter how much i scream or say, he simply wont listen... i feel super pain right now... i still have to show my stronger side to mum... but now i am really very tired and stressed out... Baby is also another one that i am worried about... her skin problem is back again... and we have no money to bring her to doctor le.. haiz...I am tired.. really very tired...
You're my everything =D
Friday, April 13, 2007 7:48:00 PM
Dad's discharged...
Dad's discharged, but i am feeling more and more worried... he is still behaving like a kid sometimes.. and he is damn stuborn at times, which add on to my worries... and now week 0 is starting, and i will be busy like mad, how am i able to take care of him at home? mum's gotta work too, and ya, mummy, please take care also wor... i feel so worried for your health too... take care...
I need enlightenment haha... even though dad's discharge and we should be happy, but i still feel very insecure and worried for him... he kips on wanting to go back to work, but come on la, he got 3 months MC, and his left eye is still not recovered yet, how to go back to work? haiz... and he still wanna bring baby out, not as if baby lee is like those guide dogs, so guai and can take care of him lor... baby will be dashing like mad, and how he is going to get hold of her and at the same time take care of himself? arghh... worried...
Worried about worrying worries!
Hopefully everything will be fine for my family... i realli hope that...
Thanks alot aunt, for sending daddy home and give me 50bucks... thanks to her 50bucks, i shall save and be thrifty from now onwards cuz this 50bucks is going to last me until nix month... i dun wanna get more money from mum cuz this will add on to her burden... so from today i will cut down those unnecessary spending of money and be super thrifty... jia you hanqun...
Week 0 is juz a few days away, hopefully everything will turn out fine for us too! haha... and i have been selected to go for the training of dragon boat for the senior and junior team... erm will i be able to make it? i will try my best then... training is on monday, but its been YEARS since i exercise lol... and also, i am scare that my big head will sink the dragon boat haha... i think thats the thing that Ah Peck wants to see lol...
And sorry E15, i cant join you guys for the pulau ubin cycling trip... i realli want to go, but down with all these stuffs i cant actually bring myself to there... u guys enjoy ya! cya real soon when skool's reopen...
You're my everything =D
Wednesday, April 11, 2007 2:08:00 AM
Starbucks made my day...
Dad's condition improved abit today... its a good sign... i am super happy when i see him having such a great appetite today.. all thanks to the chilli that he misses so much haha... Gor gor came today and visit daddy.. but he got himself injured while driving his scooter here... please be careful k? and do take care wor... These few days i have been having cravings for starbucks haha... dunno y lol... and when gor when downstairs and get food for himself, he bought me a cup haha... i din ask him to buy.. well i guess thats telepathy lol... he bought the one that i always drink lol... super happy lor when i see him bringing that to me... starbucks really makes my day lol... Oh ya, anyone knows how to eFile income tax? i need to help my dad eFile... and my brother's one too... but i dunno! lol... gotta call up and learn...Alritez, gotta go sleep liao... tml going to skool for meeting to do the lt deco and banner... gotta wake up early...All the way daddy~!
You're my everything =D
Monday, April 09, 2007 9:53:00 PM
Ti gong... please bless my dad...
Dad's condition sort of worsen today... he lost his vision on the left eye now, but luckily it can be recovered, but how much the eyesight will be recovered wise is still unknown... as a driver, he needs the eyesight, but now, he cant see things on the left, how he going to drive in future? this really bring crisis to my family...Over the next few days, more detailed report will be out... hopefully there wont be anymore bombs... Ischaemic stroke makes dad losing the ability to see using the left eye, and also he cant actually perform any logical and executive functions for the time being... all i hope is he can recover as soon as possible...Mummy is super tired, i am afraid she will fall too... ti gong, please bless both of them... please... I am very tired, so is mum... but i have to persevere, and i cant fall too... gambateh hanqun!
You're my everything =D
12:47:00 AM
Thanks alot for your care and concern...
Guys (of cuz girls too lol), thanks alot for your concern... i really appreciate it... thankew you all alot...Dad's condition doesnt seems optimistic to me, though the doctor says that his condition is consider stable... but these few days are the crucial period... dad is sort of like having illusion or hallucination... he says i got a younger brother, which apparently i dun have one... and mum and me is super worried... wondering whether are there any spirits in my house, or its the symptoms of the stroke... gotta ask the doctor about it tml.. hopefully daddy will be fine soon...With dad in the hospital, more unwanted stuffs will soon be coming... financial soon will be meeting the dead ends, and we have to find ways to solve it... i wonder how are we going to find... guess i will have to work more... its ok, as long as everything can be resolved... i am the only back up for my mum right now... she is so worried... no matter what i will be strong and help her in whenever she needs... i cant afford to see her fall too... 汉群， 加油！
You're my everything =D
Saturday, April 07, 2007 11:27:00 PM
I must be strong, no matter what...
Its a tragic moment when i heard from the doctor that dad has a stroke... he is behaving abnormal since yesterday when he came back from indonesia with me and mummy... initially, i still thought that he got possessed... what i hope now is he can recover as soon as possible... these few days are the crucial period and he is put under observation right now... i will be super busy cuz i wanto go and look after him...To those majestic team mates who are reading my blog, i have to apologise in advance that i might not be able to make it for those meetings for our banner and decoration stuffs or i might need to leave at an earlier time cuz i have to take care of my dad... thanks for the understandings... sorryz...Unfortunate events happened one after another... when will it stop? but no matter what, i muz be strong to take care of mummy and daddy... 加油! 汉群!
You're my everything =D
Thursday, April 05, 2007 12:19:00 AM
I am going to see you...
I am going to see you le ah li jie jie... somehow i still got the strong feelings that you are around me... i still can feel your presence...No matter what, i realli hope you can enjoy ur life in heaven... Went to AS today to do up the decorations for lt and banner... its super tiring but all of us had fun lol... stupid wallace kip on calling me the own goal man lol... but i am too tired to put up the details and thoughts and feelings about the camp i had last week... will post it soon after i came back from indonesia...Going to wake up at 5am tml morning and board the 1st ship to balai... super tired, but dun feel like sleeping... all thoughts and feelings gushed up like tsunami... i am sooooo dunno how to say... its going back, and i am back to the same old thing again... i used to give up, and now again... haiz... 孙燕姿's new song 逆光 realli speaks what i feel right now... i am so emo lol... but i realli have to give up once again... arghhh... i shall not talk about this right now... guess until i come back then i will sit down and think and sort out my thoughts...Cya tml ah li jie jie...
You're my everything =D
Sunday, April 01, 2007 11:47:00 PM
Goodbye Ah Li jie jie...
Ah Li jie jie has passed away on saturday night 11pm... and i was in my OLTC camp... nothing can describe my feelings now cuz even i myself i dunno how to describe... I guess i am too tired to say anything now... but i realli hope she can enjoy the rest of her life in heaven... she is a great and nicest relative i had, and i cant bear to see her leave... thing juz happened when i failed to grap her last presence... all i can do now is to kip our memories inside my broken heart... you will always be inside my heart forever...Well i haven shed a tear since now... i guess i might be too tired to cry... but i am realli very sad now... inside my camp i have to put up a strong look haha... that sounds rather childish, but i juz wanto show my fragile side only when i am sleeping in my bedroom... You have left us for heaven. I love you ah li jie jie...
You're my everything =D