Monokuro Boo

The worries continue...

Back from SISPEC... thank god there is no 2 weeks confinement, if not i will just die inside haha... and ya, got into a siong company once again! Charlie coy... all along i only thought bravo and delta is the siong one... so when i got into charlie, i was delighted and felt relieved. BUT I WAS WRONG... the moment i saw my sect com, the fate is sealed... i guess the next 8 wks will be disastrous... meanwhile 1 wk had passed... everything is still copable... but who knows what will be going on for the nix 7? beats me haha...

Got confined for the 1st week due to the fact that i failed my ippt haha... wad to do... pull up still chui haha... ippt started straight away when i came back from guard duty... but i dont think i should give any excuse to make me feel better, cuz i noe i sucks in pull up haha... gotta train hard for it... cuz nix time if never get silver for ippt, sure confine for corrective training... think i will have loads of confinement...

Speaking about corrective training.. yesterday's training was fun.. conducted by Staff sgt john... a super nice guy haha... heng he is my platoon one lolll... guess what he asked... who stayed sengkang and hougang area!!! i raised up my hand and he initiated to ask sgt derrick to send us back home muahahah... care for soldiers! haha... thats something worth to be happy about sia lolll... no nid to take train and bus until my butt rots lolll..

Now my main worry is baby lee... she might have a mammary gland tumour... i am really super worried cuz she is my everything... i cant afford to see her suffer... if anything happens to her, i think i will be OOC... cuz i will be too depressed to continue training... haiz... praying hard that nothing happens to her... Ti Gong pls bless her...

I love you baby...

You're my everything =D

Then and Now...

And yes, i am finally back to my blog.. after a super long 'hiatus' haha... i am not resting actually, so probably that shouldnt be called a hiatus haha... however, this 12days of block leave did let me replenished all the energy i had lost during BMT days lolll... credits to my beloved parents and baby lee, my friends and of cuz mahjong haha!

Pop-ed on 9th sep 2008, and that marks another stage of my life... its another milestone that i had acheived and i would never forget those shit that i went through during the 13weeks BMT haha... posted to Ninja coy wasnt what i expected myself to be, moreover the training isnt something that i expected myself to pass through.. but ya, i had made it! its indeed a proud moment for me and my family... pushing myself through all the limits that during normal days i wouldnt have expected myself to make it through haha! the 24km route march just before graduation parade is indeed memorable! FBO during graduation parade haha...

13wks of fun, joy, love, hate, shagness, and many more haha... i find myself a rather quiet person inside BMT... thats a big contrast with the civilian me loll... i am a super loudspeaker and lame person during civilian life, but when i am inside BMT, i am very quiet haha... alot of reasons made me being so quiet, but i doubt i will list them all down haha... of cuz i do make alot of noise sometimes, just trying to be irritating LOL... and most remarkable one was to irritating my platoon mates with my singing - BLEEDING LOVE LOLLL...

I would have said i grew up alot inside BMT, both physically and mentally haha... i realised how human tend to display selfish behaviour when they are in tense situation... of cuz i am not a saint, i do display those selfishness behaviours at times too haha... but u will reflect upon what u had done more when you are inside, and this indeed makes you grow up...

There are actually alot of things i wanna share in this post, but i am too tired oso haha... guess i will continue next time ba... tml i will be booking in to my new unit! SISPEC haha... hopefully i can get into a welfare coy haha... and most importantly i hope i can make it through for those trainings haha...

My mood now is actually pretty down... going to book in always make me emo lolll.. i need time to adjust for that though haha... but what makes me so worried and sad is my beloved doggy Baby... was playing with her this afternoon and realised that she had a small lump on her nipple... and i am worried that it might be an onset of mammary gland tumour... she is 6.5 years old now, and its actually 'time' that she can develop these... cockers spaniel are of higher risk as well... this makes me so damn worried that those worries i am having for SISPEC are replaced by her body condition... i have always been thinking i had not done enough things for her, especially when i am enlisted to army also... and now if she really have tumour, it will be a disastrous hit on me... i had to monitor her conditons, but i am not at home... who else can help me do that? nobody... parents dont know anything about it... what can i do? how i wish i can bring her along to my camp site... childish thoughts but hard to abolish it from my head right now...

Baby, u must be fine okie... i will try my best to help you...

You're my everything =D